An Empty Canvas

Freezing !

2012-02-11T11:21:00.000-08:00

So if you can't tell, I usually (when I'm too lazy to write)
post pictures and photography onto this blog instead of blogposts.

Mostly because nobody reads them ^^;

and because I'm lazy ... -_____-

I have been working on tutorials for the blog, so I think that'll be neat,
I'm just..yet...to...write...them....

-sighs-

It's freaking freezing right now, and it's pretty disappointing.
I wake up, and see the bright blue sky outside my window, and I'm like:
AWE YEAH IM GOING TO GO OUTSIDE

and then I GO OUTSIDE

and I die.

Because it's so freaking cold.

and so then I run away.

and I spend all my time reading manga online.

(I'm reading this shoujo called Love so Life

AHHH SO CUUUTEEE~)
okay bai
-Hiroki

Making Tintin out of Play-doh ;D

2012-02-07T22:50:00.001-08:00

The Facebook Nightmare

2012-02-04T14:18:00.000-08:00

So only recently, and as in recently, I mean two days ago, did I de-activate my facebook.
Not only is this because I spend minimum 12 hours a week on facebook, or the annoying passive aggressive facebook status's written by my classmates, family, and so on has been bothering me, or that my "friend" (note the quotation marks) had been a primary reason, but it was a challenge as well.

How long can I actually last without facebook?

I bite my lip as I type this.

I honestly, don't think very long.

I've tried this before, and cracked after a week.

Molly suggests a month, but even in February, I shudder at the idea.

Can I do a month?

It'll get easier after the first few weeks.

Yes. I can do a month.

...Right?

Last night I had a nightmare, I re-activated my facebook by accident.

Oh lord.

Wish me luck?

-Hiroki

Tintin Photoshoot

2012-02-04T09:47:00.000-08:00

Immortality Tea~

2012-02-03T10:25:00.003-08:00

Running Away

2012-02-02T15:21:00.000-08:00

A lot of people look down on running away from your problems.

I am one of those people, who tell my friends never to run away from their problems, it's better to face it. I am also one of those people who nonetheless managed to prove myself wrong, again -_-.

It all started like a normal morning.
I arrived at school, five minutes before the bell was to ring. I opened my locker, and grabbed some books, took off my giant bright ugly yellow jacket and hung it in my locker. Cool story right?

The kids come behind me talking about people and being jerks.
Then the nice kid comes, and one of the annoying kids (lets call him Erik)
calls the nice kid the no gender kid because he doesn't act like a jerk so he seems like a girl -.-
That pisses me off, so I spin around and stare Erik.

He smirks at me.

I raise my eyebrows to prove I'm not impressed, stare at him, and slowly spin around.

Damn Wannabe popular kids.
Their just as bad as the popular kids.

I took a few books I needed for research, and my entire backpack and trudged up the stairs.
I put on my earbuds, ready to turn the world off around me and melt into my music when one ear wasn't working.

Gah.

I only got to use the earbuds three times and they already break.

It's okay though, because music is still music.
But now, the world isn't turned off.
I can still hear the students around me no matter how much I want them to disappear.

Instead, it feels like soundtrack music from a movie.
Still music playing,
just over the talking and action of the busy hallways, as I try to maneuver around the crowd and slip away.

I check my music player.

Weightless- All Time Low

I approve.

My backpack, currently holding a binder, two textbooks, four duotangs stuffed with paper, and other things is awfully heavy. I throw it under the desk.

People used to ask me why I had my backpack and why I didn't put it in my locker, but they've given up.
Because still, everyday, I drag my heavy backpack to every class I go too.
It's more convenient storing all my books in one place. That place is my backpack.

I threw out all my old papers, keeping only the necessities, and use only one binder for every subject.

It's easier, and I'm lazy.

What else is new?

Suddenly, 'Paul' (Known as troll on my polyvore) sits beside me.

"Howdy." He says.

I stare at him as if he's mental, and he looks away.

I wonder if Cammie's going to arrive.
Soon enough I see her legs move through the classroom,
you can tell who Cammie is by the way she walks.

She walks slowly, swaying her legs, proud like a supermodel, but sly like a cat.

That sounds kind of creepy.
But it's true -shrugs-

She pauses by her desk taken by Paul, but moves on.

I secretly want to hit my head against a wall because I don't know what to do now.

The teacher then calls out, that all students must return to their assigned seats and Paul leaves and Cammie returns to her seat, and says hello to me.

She shows me a part in her book (Aka percy jackson) and we giggle at Poseidon together.
The bell rings and we go to our social studies class.
I work hard and diligently at our project, while Sheila and Bree make figurines out of silly puddy.

Yes my group is great.
They begin to terrorize me convincing me that I have less time to finish it than I really did, and I freak out infront of Luke and his group who is to our right.

I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm crazy.

Actually, I lied, I know he thinks I'm crazy.

Oh well.

I get called to the office, and spend the rest of the time dealing with catching up on strategies to catch up on my studies and so on.
I don't want to catch up. It's too boring.

I go back to my friends, who are now answering relationship questions on yahoo answers instead of you know, working.
But they're my friends, and I love them, and it's amusing all the same.

The bell rings and I go to my locker, its crazy crowded and two idiot guys in my class begin to fight and the shove me by accident.
I drop all my things and glower at them.
They don't respond, they don't even care.
It sucks.

It sucks ass.
It reminds me of how moronic school is to begin with.

I go get changed into a pair of shorts and a t-shirt. I forgot my gym shoes and realize that I'm going to have to wear my knee high crumpled grey boots with my shorts.Definitely Sexy , and I go to the gym, with my backpack. Luke's basketball almost hits me in the face, and I flinch and cover my face. He doesn't say anything.
He just ignores me, like I pretend to ignore him.
The teacher questions me about my backpack and I tell her theres no room in my locker.
She's about to put it in the phys ed office, but she gets pre occupied and me and cammie sneak outside and play badminton.

We're not breaking any rules.
People who wanted to play badminton were supposed to go outside, and play in the front of the school.
So we do so,
theres already a few asian kids playing outside, they go in.

Me and Cammie begin.

It's cold wearing shorts, but the sun is shining so it's good enough. We keep running into the picnic tables but that's okay.

It's still fun, and we talk as we hit the shuttle back and forth and back and forth.
Eventually we give up, and lounge around on the tables talking about how much things changed since we were little.

The bell rings and I scream.
We didn't get a chance to change, so I slip upstairs, wearing shorts and a gym t-shirt, but whatever.

The science classroom is quiet.
Theres only two other kids there.
The sunlight is streaming in from the only window,
and it's wonderful.

It's the afternoon light, and it's calming and warming.
It's quiet, and I just came back from being outside, and I want the moment to never end.

Of course it does, as the rest of the students pour in.

A test is handed out.

A test I am not prepared for.

We're given two tables.

A periodic table with the masses, and a periodic table with different symbols I'm not really sure what they mean to be honest.

I don't get the second table, because they've run out.
I'm supposed to use the giant table glued to the wall at the front.
But I can't see it.
It's stupid.
And I feel stupid.

She asks people if they want to do the quiz or not because they've missed recent classes. I missed recent classes, but I don't get the same option. This ticks me off.
I stare at the quiz, and I realize I have no idea what I'm doing.

Great.

I try, but fail.
I can see Luke, and he doesn't look like he's doing so great either. It makes me feel relieved in some stupid way, it just does to know that for once, we are the same. We both suck at science.

As I stare at the white sheet, I realize that today really sucks and I don't want to stay here any longer.
I plot to leave as soon as the class ends during lunch time.
Would it really be okay, just to storm out of the school, take the bus and go home?

No.
No it wouldn't.

I don't really care though, and decide I will.
It's only later onto the quiz where I've answered random things like 900000, and dinosaurs that I realize I have a mighty good chance at getting suspended for ditching school.

That's tougher.

I finished the quiz.
For the diagrams I had to draw of the elements. I draw people.

For Oxygen, I drew a girl with long white hair and sunglasses.
Don't ask why.
Oxygen just seems like somebody who'd have white hair.

It kind of strikes me , that this paper is so white and crisp, that i just want to draw.
so I do. I want to laugh, because somehow tests paper and blue pen just work so well for drawing. I draw on the edges and the corners and color in the questions and the boxes and write quotes from Tintin.

It's just striking how its just meant to be.

A blue pen and paper,
and ideas and pictures spilling out onto the paper.
I draw quickly, and I want to smile.

But I don't.

The bell rings, and I hand it in, open my backpack and grab my phone, take all my papers and backpack, and leave.

First I call home.

There is no answer. I groan, turning into the staircase that nobody takes (it's totally my favorite staircase)

I call my mom's cell. No answer.

My hands are full with the cellphone pressed to my ear, the research papers my second hand and my backpack slung across one shoulder so I kick the door open, freaking out the 'freshman' behind me.
I find my dad's work number and call him saying I want to go home.

He doesn't really ask much questions after that, and he says he'll try to call the school and say I wasn't feeling well.

I know I'm supposed to sign out , but I don't want too, so I grab my coat and lunch from my locker and head out.

I want to run, but I don't .

So I listen to music and take the bus home.

When the bus arrives, I'm pretty sure this is it.
I wait for the bus driver to accuse me of something, to stop me.
He doesn't.

and I go inside.

I realize as I'm heading towards the station, that this is it.
I've just left.

Awe yeah.

I spend a good amount of time wondering what I am to do with my afternoon.
But in the end, instead of going shopping, or going anywhere in fact.
I just go home.
I don't really want to get caught.
It surprises my mom when she sees opens the door all the same.

She asks too many questions.

Anyways.
Thats what I did today.

-Hiroki

Blogging Everyday

2012-01-29T13:23:00.000-08:00

Hello,
I don't know really what to say, except that I try to post something everyday. I don't know what people are interested in, or what people like to read or so on, so I'll just keep typing and typing and typing.
It's a good start at least.
This may not get me far but at least it's something to do.

Mm.

I like to do photography, and I like to work on art and painting.
I've recently applied for an art school, and I'm terrified about not making it at all. I own a grey tabby cat who's asleep on the sofa right now.
I know these are useless, ranting things, but they're what I write.

I went to a class on how to do Hula Dancing today.
Oh yes.
It was very sexy.
I've been taking alot of risks lately and it's crazy but exciting, and I'm proud because typically I just hide behind my computer.

I love snow, and i love the sun, and I love the rain.
My favorite thing to do is stare up at the clouds, lying down, or staring up at the stars.
It's always the funnest thing to do.

Okay.
I'm just so freaked out.
About not getting into the art school.
I was too shy, and I didn't show them any of my work.
I probably didn't seem like I have much potential.
I don't even know if I do.
I just love art.
and I love working, and I want to improve.
But I couldn't say it. I just got tongue tied.
and I am so afraid.
and so scared.
and I just don't know what to do.
All I know is I want to get into the art school.
>_<
-Hiroki

Art Class

2012-01-28T09:26:00.000-08:00

So yesterday was pretty awesome.

Why was it awesome, you may be wondering?

Because the entire day, I spent in the art room, painting with water color.

And that my dear friends/ readers, is why it was awesome.

We listened to the radio, and sang to the music, painted quietly, and talked and laughed.

We also got tea guise.

We got tea.

All the other students were doing rock climbing, or badminton, or whatever~

I did art.

And that my readers/friends, was why it was awesome.

2012-01-26T19:51:00.001-08:00

That's what makes you beautiful ♥

2012-01-23T22:09:00.000-08:00

You're insecure...♫
Aughhhh!!
I can't get this stupid song out of my head.
I listened to it once, and BAM. Total addiction.
Not cool people. Not cool.
Next thing you know, I'll be making sets on polyvore and fangirling over One Direction ;_;
NOOOOO !
Somebody save me!!

Anyways.
How are you guys?
I hope you are all well, and that you've had a lovely Chinese New Year!
Gong Hei Fat Choi!

Things you hopefully did this New Year:

1. Ate Chicken ( I know alot of people say it's dumplings, but my family tradition is to eat chicken for good luck, weird huh?)
2. Ate Dumplings (Stick with tradition haha)
3. Wore Red (Wards off evil spirits and brings good luck and prosperity!)
4.Ate citrus fruits (awe yeah)
5. Had fun!!

Things you hopefully didn't do this New Year:

1. Dance around in a chicken suit. (Guise, for the last time, it's not cool)
2. Bring up or mention the unlucky number of doom~
3. Greeted Mourning people.
4. Lend/Borrowed money.
5. Washed your hair (You'll wash away your good luck and prosperity!)
6. Cut your hair (Same thing pretty much)
7. Wore white

Anywho~
I hope you guys had a lovely chinese new year, and that the year of the dragon is kind to us all! <3

Today I stayed home.
I caught up on late homework, and changed into a red chinese dress that I've owned since I was very young. I listened to One Direction (I cracked) ....a couple....times....maybe...sort...of.....okay...maybe...a.....FEW...more....times....than....normal....people...would....
I went to the supermarket, and bought supper, and some good luck chicken for Molly and her family, and dropped that off at her house.
It was a lot of fun.
The rest of the night I worked on catching up on program work, and surfing the internet (of course)

Wishing you the best in the New Year <3

-Hiroki

I don't have much to say, so enjoy this picture of a donut I took when I was talking to Molly on the Phone(:

2012-01-22T18:38:00.001-08:00

Drawing an Eye with a Crayon~

2012-01-20T16:09:00.001-08:00

Tragedy~

2012-01-19T21:37:00.001-08:00

We picked up my laptop from the shop today.

They couldn't retrieve any of the files.

We're taking it to a specialist.

I'm really upset about losing all my photos and videos because I make and edit videos on my spare time as gifts for friends so I lost alot of them. It's upsetting ._.

Wish us luck?

-Hiroki

Goodness.

2012-01-17T22:26:00.000-08:00

Ah, I must admit I do love where I love but..

The city's on her period again. -.-

It's so cold outside, I can't even...

It's -22 F

Yesterday we were filming a documentary on love, and asking students and teachers about what they think of love, and any stories they had. Some kid was walking by so we pulled him over and asked what he was doing.
He said he was going home.

We asked him if we could ask him some questions and why he was going home.

He said he got frostbite from going outside at lunch.

We were like oooh, okay maybe not then, bye!

Poor kid.

Its so cold outside, but at least it's pretty.

When we were lacking snow, I made instant snow.

I'll share the photos I took during my attempt.

Did I mention I added music to my blog?
Awe yeah~
Dance party.

Well....the music is strange because they're my favorites.

But I like it ^_^
AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS MWAHA

-Hiroki

H for hiroki ^_^

She Expected the World

2012-01-17T21:50:00.000-08:00

It was in class.
I was staring at my computer screen blankly, Cammie was memorizing her chinese that she's been obsessing over for the past few days, the sheep kids were in the corner laughing about something and the smart kids were having heated debates over how to contact the minister of education.
The sheep kids are playing some ugly techno beat dirty language songs and theres mindless chatter and the sound of fingers tapping against the keyboard.

I sighed, I knew all I really wanted to do was draw.
So I did.
It was on microsoft paint, and the mouse was wobbly and hard to control, but I managed. I then edited it on photoshop to add shading.
And when I began to draw on microsoft paint, the familiar tune of a favorite song began to play. I shook my head at the thought, they were playing ugly music, they're unable to be educated on music I appreciate.

But the song kept playing and soon enough the singer's voice broke in and I knew it was the song.

Paradise

I found myself swaying to the music as I drew.
It's one of my favorite songs, how can I not?
People walked by and began to compliment my drawing.
Soon enough other people were trying (and laughing hysterically while they didn't ...erm...do it the same) on what I drew.
It's strange because I'm usually invisible.

I thought I'd share this story.
I hope you listen to the song, and not hate the drawing.
-Hiroki

How To Curl Your Hair With a Hair Straightner

2012-01-13T19:25:00.000-08:00

How to curl your hair with a hair straightner,
By Hiroki

You will need:
a) Hair protectant (though I didn't use any heh)
b) Clips/Bobbypins/Barrettes
c) Hair Straightener
d) Hair elastics
Estimated time varies.

This technique is alot like spit curls, or pin curling.
Maybe it is pin curling.
I don't know, I just found it on the internet and I did my hair this morning and it turned out rather well.

Steps:

First pull half of your hair up, and tie it up with an elastic.
Your hair should be divided into two halves now.

Take a lock of hair at the bottom of your head, and begin to roll it up to the highest point you can do it.

Press the hair straightener on it, leave it there for ten seconds.

Carefully, pull away the hair straightner, but don't loose the hair roll, pin the hairrolll to your head, and keep it like that until it cools so the curl keeps.

Continue to do this with the rest of your bottom half of your hair.

Next undo the top half, and do the same thing.

It turns out surprisingly curly.

I know this wasn't the best explanation, so I'll explain better once my tablet is fixed, or I get my notebook.

TTFN,
Hiroki

Feeding The Fish

2012-01-12T18:14:00.001-08:00

Dear lord, I've discovered the best thing ever. o.o

Remember the fish I put on the side of my blog?
Click it the little box with the fish.

FISH FOOD WILL APPEAR

That is right, ladies and gentlemen,

YOU CAN FEED THE FISH.
OH MY GOD!!!!

My evening is going to be well spent.

Being sick isn't so fun after all.

2012-01-12T17:37:00.000-08:00

In my last post, I concluded that being ill was fun in a sick way. (Bad pun, sorry)
I lied.
I change my mind.
I take it back.
Being ill is definitely not fun.
It's my second day missing school, and I think I'm getting better, but it doesn't change that:

* When I cough I feel like my lungs are exploding
* My throat hurts like hell
* I've lost my voice several times
* It's hard to communicate
* I'm sick of being inside
* I'm going to have so much problems catching up in schoolwork
* My head hurts
* Did I mention my throat hurts like hell?
* I can't make cupcakes. T^T

I need my cupcakes READERS.
I need them.
o.o

-Hiroki

Ohai, I'm too lazy to write so here's a picture of tintin to make up for it

2012-01-11T21:11:00.001-08:00

She's drowning in Society

2012-01-10T22:41:00.000-08:00

Still Ill

2012-01-10T22:30:00.000-08:00

It's kind of unfortunate that it has almost been a week since I got sick, and I am still sick.
Maybe its the lack of sleep, or forcing myself to go to school.
Either or, I'm sick.
My coughing is despicable and it drives my friend's insane.
On the contrary, that is why being sick is most fun. When your not coughing up a lung, and feeling like you can't breathe, and that you're going to die, it's fun because it drives your friends insane, and it's something you can't help, and neither can I.
It's kind of tragic that being sick is the most fun I've had in weeks.
Somedays I loose my voice, and it freaks everybody out.
When I try to talk, all my friends just laugh at me, and I get really irritated and try to yell at them (which, as you suspect) doesn't work out very well.

I'm enjoying being sick really.
Some of it isn't so fun, the irritableness, the grogginess, the sore throats, constricting lungs, feeling ill all over, fevers, headaches, etc.

But at least , for once I actually have a legitimate reason to miss school, even though on the contrary of most of my beliefs and will, I actually want to go to school.

I quite enjoy it really.

I'm learning slowly that it's okay not to be perfect.

It's actually helping me fit in more.
My friend and I spent the lunch on the ground in the hallway labelling people by their shoes.

Douche,
Wannabe,
Normal,
Classy,
Pretty,
Douche,
Douche,
Douche

So stereotypical, so wrong, yet...strangely so much fun :)
Though my argument that only (well...mostly) the mean students usually get the douche title or the wannabe, it's still awful shallow.

Talking freely, gossiping, wearing stud earrings and straightening hair.
That strange way of dressing expensively yet slobbily to look less uptight.

It's unusually fun.
I feel almost carefree.
I'm losing myself.
But its so much fun.
It's so different.
It's so new.

----It's alot less like me.
I'm alot less lonelier, I admit.

But alot more vain as well.

It reminds me of when I was little.

It's to pretend.

-Hiroki
P.S.
That's not me in the picture.

Bam Bam Bam Bam Bam Bam Bam

2012-01-09T15:32:00.000-08:00

I'm currently listening to a song that my friend, Molly, introduced to me.

It's called who's laughing now, by Jessie J.

Here's a link to the music video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KsxSxF3JKeU&ob=av3e

I quite like it, to be honest.

How was your day?

For me, it was the first day back.

It was awful for the following reasons:

a) I was still sick

b) I couldn't stop talking

c) Schoolwork.

Though the teachers have been lovely, so I can't complain.

But when I got home, my tintin calendar came!!

I was so happy, and then I went to my room, and it was re-organized, and the desk was brought into my room.

My friend, Sheila and I were walking down the hallway and the teacher stopped us and called us twins because of our matching striped cardigans, (we didn't realize)

Sheila got really into this, and so now, I am to call her twin, and she is to call me twin, and we're going to wear the same color shirt tomorrow, because we are the coolest kids in the entire school.

To be honest, I don't mind, because I love Sheila.

She's unique, and that's what's wonderful about her.

Not saying that I'm far from unique either. I don't fit in really.

I can work on turning it into a studio much later.

Also, I found some money, so that made me happy.

Overall, the day got much better when I got home.

I'm going to go watch a disney classic movie just because I can :]

I hope you all had a lovely day and a lovely evening!

Also special birthday wishes to my friend Kaitlin.

Happy Birthday Kaitlin :]

-Hiroki

5 Great Reasons My Blog is Phenomenal.

2012-01-08T17:30:00.000-08:00

Hello.
I thought I would share 5 detailed reasons my blog is absolutely incredible.
This may sound excessive, or audacious, but I think it is needed.

TOP FIVE REASONS MY BLOG IS PHENOMENAL

1. It has fish.

2. There are SIX fish.

3. They move.

4. They are colored fish.

5. My blog, has FISH.

Excuse me while I go frolic in a field for ten minutes. AHSDKLASDHAKFHSLDAGJKSDHLA.
My blog has fish.

It sounds ridiculously immature to say, but does your blog have fish? I bet it doesn't. If it does, well then. (disappointed)

All the same.

My blog.has.fish.

Dear gosh.

-Hiroki

This is an awfully lame title but that is okay~

2012-01-08T17:09:00.000-08:00

Hello again.
It's kind of awkward because I know that nobody is reading this, and my hands are awfully cold and making it difficult to write. (Despite my small adventure that took place a half an hour ago, my hands are still uncooperative with my typing)

I don't know much what to say.
The blog isn't furnished yet. In fact, I'll attach a current picture for later users who are probably checking out my blog because of it's much well popularity and raving reviews. (That, my friend was a joke if you did not perceive it) So it's kind of awkward because I'm not sure what I'm going to post.

I intend to post my photography, artwork and writings just because that's mostly what I do.
I know it's not that exciting but, you'll have to make do because it is, in matter of fact, my blog. I will not tolerate any negative comments. I say this because it's best to fake confidence when your posting a blog of your work into the world. There are always people who have negative opinions, and they are usually the type who can't keep them to themselves.

When the time comes, I hope I'll hold my head high, and ignore them. Because hopefully I will be much more richer and successful than them to care. But for now, all I am is a confused, ill, teenager who's coughing on her sofa while typing on her father's computer because her own is not cooperating.

Now I know what you may be thinking.

That's nice.

But hey, referring to my previous writing above this. It's my blog, and I shall mindlessly ramble if I want too. If you don't like it, GTFO. :)

Oh gosh, that was fun to say.

Nevermind, I'm currently suffering from a small cold. My cold's symptoms include loss of voice (yes, tragic, indeed -said with much sarcasm-) , coughing half a lung out, and an irritating sore throat. I'm hoping this will be good enough to miss the first day back to school of 2012, but so far the odds aren't in my favour.

I've decided my anonymous name will continue to be the one I use often.

Peace,
Hiroki

Tintin being asked out.

2012-01-05T12:06:00.001-08:00

o.o I don't even. shdnfsklxfhak.

A Painting I did for A Friend's Birthday

2011-12-14T17:06:00.001-08:00

Introductions

2011-12-09T23:31:00.000-08:00

Hi.
I don't really know where to start, but I guess this is my blog.
I don't know who will ever be reading this. It could be dangerous stalkers, friends, family members, teachers, co-workers, classmates. I don't know if I'll ever know.
Maybe it'll just be nobody.

Please refrain yourself, from leaving hateful comments. If you dislike me or my blogposts, just avoid my blog and their posts, and read something else instead. Be the better person. Don't sink to unnecessary levels because their only hurting yourself.

I guess you could say that I'm a socially awkward, computer loving, constantly writing, drawing and reading, stranger on the internet.

You probably won't know where I actually live, or my actual age or name. Anybody mentioned in this blog will have a different name from what they really have to protect thier privacy.

The same information goes with my location, age, name, and appearance.

You'll never know.
Maybe one day I'll live in China, and then Ukraine the next.

I just wanted to warn you about my ability to hide my information well.

I also have the ability to talk alot and give away everything.

Have a wonderful day.

-Me.